Showing posts with label Poetry. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Poetry. Show all posts

Thursday, February 8, 2018

A Hero's Tale by Michael P. HagEstad

A Hero’s Tale


Before I lay my head to sleep
Before I pray my soul to keep
     Tell me a Hero’s Tale

Tell me a story I may recall well
So I may my grandchildren tell
Speak of a man daring and true
Doing great deeds for me and you
Who does not need great powers or luck
Who relies on his skill in the times he is stuck
Sing of a warrior who lives by his creed
Who has great honor and takes care of his steed
Hold him up for the generations to see
How they should live and what they should be
Do this now as the sun sets low
As the campfire crackles and the embers glow
The time for heroes may have come and gone
But there is time yet for a ballad or song

     So tell me a Hero’s Tale
For this time is brief and we must regale
Our values and virtues through a Hero’s Tale


-Michael Patrick HagEstad

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Three days after Michael left for his second semester as a freshman college student, I found this hand written poem on a piece of yellow tablet paper sitting on top of papers that were scattered on our work desk, no heads up, no "hey, I wrote something, did you read it?" 

So after I noticed it, I asked him when he wrote it, and he said he couldn't sleep the night before leaving, and since he'd been mulling these words around for a while, he decided at 3:00 am to just write them down. So of course, I asked him if I can publish it on my blog, and he, of course, says "do what you have to do, mom". 

Wednesday, September 14, 2016

Balance, Stumble; Balance Again

Summer ending
Hiking beginning
Oppressive heat
Air damp
Monsoon season
Saying farewell
Tight lungs
Deep breath

Rhythmic pace
Crunching footsteps
Brown sand
Tan gravel
Black rocks
Red boulders
Small, large
Sharp, smooth
Balance, stumble
Balance again

Noisy nature
Clicking crickets
Snaps, skitters
Secretive lizards
Squawks, screeches
Twittering birds
Hissing shrub
Startled hiker
Balance, stumble
Balance again

Silvers, greens
Rough bark
Smooth stems
Swollen succulents
Isolated flowers
Ripe cacti
Soft appearance
Sharp reality
Balance, stumble
Balance again

Intense sun
Gentle sky
Whispering breeze
Promised relief
Seasons intertwined
Nature's dance
Full circle
Momentary pause
Balance, stumble
Balance again

Heated skin
Sweaty overlay
Deep breaths
Lungs expanding
Easier now
Lazy muscles
Reawakening strength
Rediscovering soreness
Balance, stumble
Balance again

Silent mind
No thinking
Awareness, presence
Only being
Watching watcher
Quietly watching
Invading thoughts
Reactive emotions
Balance, stumble
Balance again

Tomorrow's expectations
Fear, anticipation
Yesterday's recollections
Sadness, longing
Watcher witnesses
Presence returns
Thoughts flee
Peace emerges
Balance, stumble
Balance again

Friday, September 9, 2016

Maybe Tomorrow


Maybe tomorrow I won't sob at the memory of loneliness.

Maybe tomorrow I won't relive like it was yesterday feeling left out through my kid's eyes.

Maybe tomorrow I'll talk to him about the gift of sympathy he's been given by being the one not invited.

Maybe tomorrow.

Sunday, March 8, 2015

A Sunday Worth Repeating

Grinning toddler
Abundant sunshine
Cool breeze
Shaded sidewalk
Welcoming church

Worship music
Contemplative offering
Hushed prayer
Heart-full tears
Invitational message

Peaceful landscape
Reflective surface
Dappled light
Dancing pool-cleaner
Warmed skin

Resting child
Outdoor nap
Effective swallowing
Suspended seizures
Joyful laughter

Family dinner
Grilled steak
Spicy potatoes
Talkative teens
Full bellies

Soft touch
Gentle caress
Smiling eyes
Loving heart
Fulfilled desires

Tuesday, July 1, 2014

I Don't Want to Heal

Imposter.
I don't know who I am right now.
Am I just going through the motions of healing, or am I really healing?
And healing from what?
Healing from the fact that I don't want to follow the rules all the time?

This life is too long.
I still occasionally feel trapped.
I still occasionally feel like running.
I've lost privacy and time to be alone for sure.
Going through the motions.

I'm definitely trying to do what those who counsel me are telling me to do.
And I'm good at it too, I think.
My family seems happy when I appear happy.
And I think I'm happy at times.
Especially when I'm busy.

But I can't tell if it's working.
I still feel a sense of loss.
It creeps up now and then.
I don't even know that I've lost anything really.
Just feel like I did.

Can I constantly stay busy so that I never have time for reflective internal thoughts?
That's probably the safest thing for me.
Stay distracted so that I don't have time to think about what I want, or what I feel.
I want to go on a Sabbatical.
I just want a break.

Some time off.
I want to hide out in a cabin alone in the woods.
I want to hide in a closet like I did as a kid.
Or under my bed.
It was safe in those places.

No one could see me.
I could be alone with my thoughts.
I could be sad and cry if I wanted to, and no one would be around questioning why.
I don't want to have to give a status report of how I feel emotionally, physically or spiritually. Because if I were truthful, it would cause disappointment.

And I don't like to disappoint.
It's a daily test of my will power not to disappoint.
I'm a mess.
Sorry family.

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Sleep

Lying down the weight of the world sinks into the mattress.

Heavy. Release.

Her eyes close as images from light fade into darkness, her mind still yammering.

Escape. Disappear.

One thought over another overlap in a complex myriad of consciousness.

Constant. Noise.

She pulls a blanket over her body as her temperature begins to drop.

Warmth. Softness.

The blessed numbing fog begins to wash over her as her inner voice fights for one last word.

Shhh. Sleep.